A Boomer in the Pew

31 Posts from Andrew Murray's 31 Day Meditation: Waiting on God

I have now finished Andrew Murray's 31 day devotional "Waiting on God", and thought I would capture a few finals thoughts, as I put this series in the archives.

Contrary to many Christian thinkers, the Scriptures are replete with references that life on this earth, living in a fallen world, with fallen creatures, will bring many trials, tribulations, and sufferings.

Suffering is inescapable.  Given this, it serves us well to seek God's advice when we encounter these periods, or find our friends, and family in these sufferings.

This book has become a very special text to me, and I am most grateful to Andrew Murray for helping me reshape my thinking in this regard.

Before this text, my expectation was, "God, get me out of here".  But, it would seem, this is part of life, and God uses, and can even be glorified in our trials.

As of this writing, I would say that I have not found the peak of this particular period of trial in my life.  I long for it.  I feel weary, but now I have a most trusted friend in this text to refer to, and help me to better have a holy view of our sufferings.

I highly recommend this text to anyone who is in a period of prolonged suffering.

Please continue on to see a listing of my 31 posts from Murray's "Waiting on God"...

Grabbing God's ankles and striving to let go of everything else

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #31) - Only.

Psalm 62:5-6 - For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.
 6 He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.

I have spent untold hours reading, and studying God's word in the past three years.  My own Damascus road event, if you will.

Our culture would have us believe that man is inherently good.  Further, our culture would believe that our path to God is our ability to be good, at least more good then bad, and then God will find us pleasant in his eyes, and grant us into the rewards of eternal relationship in heaven.

The great problem with this thinking is that it is a lie.  It is not true.  Furthermore, if you read the Bible you will find God speaking directly against this falsehood.  We are selfish, prone to wander from God, and each desiring to seek our own way.

As we continue to read, and understand God's holiness, this becomes increasingly apparent as we see ourselves in comparison with perfect holiness. 

From this point a desperation begins to set in as you begin to understand your true nature.  And here it is that we begin a right relationship, a right understanding, and how desperately we need God to protect us from not only the onslaught of the world, but of our own selves.

Thankfully, God tells us that he will never let his true children go.  Once you are truly in his hand, you will remain there.  The paradox is that even so, we are still trapped in this earthly shell, and the temptation to run off is ever present.

Therefore, the true saint will daily hide in God's shadow, hang near the spring of everlasting life, and seek to grab hold of God's ankles. 

The temptations of the world, and of our selves are great.

Oh God, during these times of my spiritual youth, please keep me shackled close to you.  And, oh my soul, wait only on God, my rock, and my salvation.

If we truly believe in God, why wouldn't we wait continually on Him?

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #30) - Continually.

Hosea 12:6 - “So you, by the help of your God, return, hold fast to love and justice, and wait continually for your God.”

Andrew Murray:

"This waiting is a promise.  God's commands are enablings: gospel precepts are all promises, a revelation of what our God will do for us.  When first you begin waiting on God, it is with frequent intermission and failure.  But do believe God is watching over you in love and secretly strengthening you in it.  There are times when waiting appears to be just losing time, but it is not so.  Waiting, even in darkness, is unconscious advance, because it is God you have to do with, and Hi is working in you.  God who calls you to wait on Him see your feeble efforts, and works it in you.  Your spiritual life is in no respect your own work; as little as you begin it, can you continue it.  It is God's Spirit who has begun the work in you of waiting upon God; He will enable you to wait continually."

It would seem that my job here is to show up continually, with expectation, with daily reading of Scriptures, and prayer.  Then with the eyes of faith, look to God, through his indwelt Spirit to make the continual, and oft subtle changes over time.

The whole idea of God actually living within the believer is a mysterious thing, isn't it?  If a surgeon were to cut open my chest, we would not find the Spirit of God. 

To the unbeliever, I am thinking of an Arizona business acquaintance right now, this sounds like certain lunacy.  Yet, undeniably, if we go sit on this dock, and stare into creation, there is something there calling us, that is much larger than ourselves.

The Scriptures tell us that our relationship with God started with his initiative.  He called us, we respond to that call through repentance, and placing our faith in Him, and then the Holy Spirit performs a miraculous thing called regeneration (spiritual birth), enters into our lives, and slowly begins the fellowship of cultivating, and strengthening our faith.

Without our continual appointment with God, this process is stalled and we wind up the most feeble, and miserable of all Christians.  One foot in the kingdom, and one foot in the world.

Just as our bodies have no life without the continual beating of our hearts, so our relationship with God has no life without our continual reliance, and waiting on Him.

Oh my soul, wait only, and continually on God!

Baby Boomers, Recessions, Idolatry, and Shattered Plans

This post is part of a collection of posts, and joined in on-line interaction with scores of others, in the reading of Jeremiah Burroughs' "The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment".

Post #3, Chapter #2

I have fallen behind my counterparts this week in posting about this chapter.  The reason is quite simple:  I am greatly struggling with its contents.

I suppose my story isn't any different than many baby boomers around the nation.

We started a business 15 years ago.  We worked our tails off, kept our lifestyle to a certain level, saved money like crazy, were more than generous in our giving, established a wonderful reputation in our town, sold our business, and moved to "retirement" at the age of 50. 

Then...WHAMO...the economy free falls, half of my cash assets are erased from my balance sheet, other crummy things happen, and all of a sudden, this great plan I built is broken.  Please don't feel sorry for me, we are still incredibly blessed.  My problem is not here today, my problem lies waiting for me 10-15 years down the road, unless today's situation changes.

It's not fair God!

It is now clear to me that God doesn't want me placing my joy in this retirement that I dreamed of, and worked so hard to accomplish.  I am passing through this earth, and my joy is to come.  I get that, and I now fully ascribe to it.

I am nearly done with Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God", and have learned a great deal.  Furthermore,  there is a tremendous amount of learning, and life change chronicled in this blog of 18 months.

But now I come to Mr. Jeremiah Burroughs, and I struggle with his second chapter on contentment.  If you remember, when we started this book, I was already raising flags with that word.

Here are a few things I am wrestling with:

• How to join these two together: to be sensible of an affliction as much as a man or woman who is not content; I am sensible of it as fully as they, and I seek ways to be delivered from it as well as they, and yet still my heart abides content-this is, I say, a mystery, that is very hard for a carnal heart to understand. But grace teaches such a mixture, teaches us how to make a mixture of sorrow and a mixture of joy together; and that makes contentment, the mingling of joy and sorrow, of gracious joy and gracious sorrow together.
• Here is the mystery of it: though his heart is so enlarged that the enjoyment of all the world and ten thousand worlds cannot satisfy him for his portion; yet he has a heart quieted under God's disposal, if he gives him but bread and water.
• Now I say that a heart that has no grace, and is not instructed in this mystery of contentment, knows of no way to get contentment, but to have his possessions raised up to his desires; but the Christian has another way to contentment, that is, he can bring his desires down to his possessions, and so he attains his contentment.
• The way of contentment is to add another burden, that is, to labor to load and burden your heart with your sin; the heavier the burden of your sin is to your heart, the lighter will the burden of your affliction be to your heart, and so you shall come to be content.
• The way of contentment to a carnal heart is only the removing of the affliction. O that it may be gone! 'No,' says a gracious heart, 'God has taught me a way to be content though the affliction itself still continues.' There is a power of grace to turn this affliction into good; it takes away the sting and poison of it. Take the case of poverty, a man's possessions are lost: Well, is there no way to be contented till your possessions are made up again? Till your poverty is removed? Yes, certainly, Christianity would teach contentment, though poverty continues. It will teach you how to turn your poverty to spiritual riches. You shall be poor still as to your outward possessions, but this shall be altered; whereas before it was a natural evil to you, it comes now to be turned to a spiritual benefit to you. And so you come to be content.

There is more in this chapter that I struggle with.  Certainly, as Burroughs suggests, these statements are insanity to the carnal mind.

I am also presently not suggesting that I can't find my way to understanding.  I can.  The problem is that part of me doesn't want to understand.  A great part of me doesn't want to utter words like I can be satisfied where I am.  My inclination is to rebuild.  I have had to hold myself back, in some ways, as I seek to understand God's heart in these regards.

Therefore, the best I can do right now is to be honest with myself, my family, my friends, and my readers, and proclaim, I am struggling with this.  It is my heart to find God's heart in this, and I am certain that He will make it plain to me.  Above all, I have been pleading for his heart.  Better to be a complete, and total pauper in God's graces, then the wealthiest of men standing against him.

I have no problem saying that.  I just want back what I had.  Thumb sucking?  Whining?  Disobedient?  Disrespectful?  Still an idolater?  Still trusting my money over God?

Perhaps, and completely open to God showing me if there is still a remnant of a stiff neck.

So...that's my story for this chapter.  I'm simply not willing to write merry words as though all is well with me, and this text. 

My intention is to keep reading. 

Oh my soul, pay attention, and wait only on God!

"The Decent of the Spirit", 1865 engraving, by Gustave Dore'.

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #29) - For the Promise of the Father.

Acts 1:4-5 - And while staying with them he ordered them not to depart from Jerusalem, but to wait for the promise of the Father, which, he said, “you heard from me; 5 for John baptized with water, but you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit not many days from now.”

As I near the end of this study, Andrew Murray shakes my senses, and reminds me that God, through the Holy Spirit, dwells inside me.

Andrew Murray:

"The Holy Spirit is not a person distinct from the Father in the way two persons on earth are distinct.  The Father and the Spirit are never without or separate from each other;  the Father is always in the Spirit, the Spirit works nothing but as the Father works in Him.  Each moment the same Spirit that is in us, is in God too, and he who is most full of the Spirit will be the first to wait on God most earnestly, further to fulfill His promise, and still strengthen him mightily by His Spirit in the inner man.  The Spirit in us is not a power at our disposal.  Nor is the Spirit an independent power, acting apart from the Father and the Son.  The Spirit is the real, living presence and the power of the Father working in us, and therefore it is just he who knows that the spirit is in him, who will wait on the Father for the full revelation and experience of what the Spirit's indwelling is, for His increase and abounding more and more."

In my mind eye, I am ashamed to admit, I have been picturing God in heaven, and me down here, far away from Him, working my heart out to wait upon Him.

Yet, the Holy Spirit is God.  The Holy Spirit dwells in me.  Therefore, God dwells in me.  God is not far off, he dwells in me!

It is clear to me that a study in prayer is in order.  How could I go 28 days with this picture in my head?  Certainly I have prayed, but I have prayed to God who is out there.  Not to God who dwells in me.

Oh my soul, wait on God who dwells in you.  Hmm....how can you wait on someone who dwells in you?

Maybe, as we learned back a bit, it is God that is doing all the waiting.  Maybe, as we also learned back a bit, I have been so wrapped up in my own...what...self imposed misery, that I haven't paid attention to God who dwells in me?  Is that possible? 

There is a great deal to consider here. 

Holy Spirit, please be so present in me that I can no longer be away from your presence. 

Oh my soul, pay attention, and wait only on God!

Waiting on God while waiting for His Son

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #28) - For the Coming of His Son.

1 Thessalonians 1:9-10 - ...you turned to God from idols to serve the living and true God, 10 and to wait for his Son from heaven...

It is so easy for us to be consumed, as we look for God, in what will be, rather than what is here before us.

Andrew Murray:  "It is always easier to be engaged with the religion of the past or the future than to be faithful in the religion of today.  As we look to what God has done in the past, or will do in time to come, the personal claim of present duty and present submission to His working may be escaped.  Waiting on God must ever lead to waiting for Christ as the glorious consummation of His work; and waiting for Christ must ever remind us of the duty of waiting upon God, as our only proof that the waiting for Christ is in spirit and truth.  There is such a danger of our being so occupied with the things that are coming more than with Him who is come; there is such scope in the study of coming events for imagination and reason and human ingenuity, that nothing but deeply humble waiting on God can save us from mistaking the interest and pleasure of intellectual study for the true love of Him and His appearing.  All you that say you wait for Christ's coming, be sure that you wait on God now."

Murray goes on to talk about a bride who is about to marry a king.  She so looks forward to what life will be like, to be married to a king, that she spends no time in the present being in love with the king.  Therefore, she becomes an unfit bride.

This behavior is so present in our natures.  We set our eyes on what life will be like when Christ comes, yet all the while He is here present with us now.

Father, please forgive me of this very transgression.  I too have my eyes set upon heaven, but daily am inclined to walk by your very presence. 

Oh my soul, diligently wait on God who is present now!

Jeremiah Burroughs - The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment (#2)

 This post is part of a collection of posts, and joined in on-line interaction with scores of others, in the reading of Jeremiah Burroughs' "The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment".

Reading Jeremiah Burroughs, if the rest of the book is like the first chapter, will require the ability to hold your breath for long periods of time.

Many Christians, it seems, hop along God's word as a jet ski quickly runs across the top of the ocean.  Burroughs, however, invites us to take a deep, deep breath, and dive down into this thing called Christian Contentment.

In so doing, like the Japanese divers of pearls, we might find, with God's aid, this rare jewel of Christian contentment.

I have already found, as I have been diving down, that my lungs are not accustomed to this diving, and as I scurry to the surface for breath, I explode into the air with an urgent gasping.

Burroughs' first chapter is not unlike sitting on a boat being given diving lessons by the world's greatest pearl diver.  He describes for us where we are going, some of the dangers that lie below, and the techniques, or knowledge, that will keep us safe.

I must admit, I have learned of a shark, or two, in this first chapter, that brings me discomfort.

Here again, is Jeremiah Burroughs' definition of Christian Contentment:

"Christian contentment is that sweet, inward, quiet, gracious frame of spirit, which freely submits to and delights in God's wise and fatherly disposal in every condition"

The definition is fairly easy to get my mind around.  Where I am likely to squirm is with the "freely submitting with delight" part.  

Burroughs teaches that with Christian contentment, it is not enough to freely go, and come under (submit) to God's sovereignty, but to do so with delight. 

What's the big deal you say? 

Well, what if God's sovereignty deals a period of discipline?  What if somehow, in this whole mysterious thing called sovereignty, perhaps even the rod of God's discipline, great disaster befalls you, like Job?  Could I, if my children were taken, all my wealth taken away, my property, and I was left penniless, freely submit with delight?

I gotta tell ya, this would be a great struggle!

Burroughs teaches that in such instances we are free to complain, or make appeal to God, but to freely submit with delight?

Friend, if taken seriously, and I am certain God desires that, this is no easy thing!

I remember Jonathan Edwards saying that there is no better place to be than submitted under the care of a perfectly good, and loving Sovereign.  I am certain that is true.  The problems is my faith, and the great amount of kicking, and screaming I am prone to do.

Oh...this is going to be quite the journey. 

Oh my soul, take a deep, deep breath, and learn to trust deeply in God's care for you!

Turning in my membership card to the Christian social club

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #27) - For Redemption.

Luke 2:25,38 -  Now there was a man in Jerusalem, whose name was Simeon, and this man was righteous and devout, waiting for the consolation of Israel, and the Holy Spirit was upon him.  38 And coming up at that very hour she began to give thanks to God and to speak of him to all who were waiting for the redemption of Jerusalem.

One of Satan's great ploys is to keep the children of God as children in the faith.  A great many, it would seem, go through life "thumbs up", got the ticket, bought the insurance policy, but have no real maturity in their faith, and no real relationship with God. 

They live not apart from this world, but are deeply ingrained in the world, and frankly, only call upon God when trouble arises.

I know, I belonged to this "Christian" social club.

In this chapter, Andrew Murray turns up the theological flame considerably.  He points us to Simeon, and Anna, both righteous Jews waiting for God's promised redemption.  Then he drives home the point that redemption has come!  We, on this side of the cross, are living in the era of redemption.  The Promised One came, died, and made possible our eternal security, in the presence of God.  And through Christ's atonement, we are granted direct access to the Holy of Holies.  Clothed in Christ, with the Holy Spirit residing, God looks upon us, and sees us as Christ.

And now we wait.  We wait for the completion of this redemption, our resurrection, and eternal life with God.

So, Andrew Murray would challenge, if you believe this, will not your waiting on God, "which began with special needs and prayer, will it not be increasingly concentrated, as far as our personal life is concerned, on this one thing:  "Lord, reveal Your redemption fully in me; let Christ live in me."

Andrew Murray:

"Learn from Simeon and Anna one lesson.  How utterly impossible it was for them to do anything toward the great redemption - towards the birth of Christ or His death.  It was God's work. They could do nothing but wait.  Are we as absolutely helpless as regard the revelation of Christ in us?  We are indeed.  God did not work out the great redemption in Christ as a whole, and leave its application in detail to us."

The secret thought that it is so lies at the root of all our feebleness.  The revelation of Christ in every individual believer, and in each one the daily revelation, step by step and moment by moment, is as much the work of God's omnipotence as the birth or resurrection of Christ.  Until this truth enters and fills us, and we feel that we are just as dependent upon God for each moment of our life in the enjoyment of redemption as they were in their waiting for it, our waiting upon God will not bring its full blessing.  The sense of utter and absolute helplessness, the confidence that God can and will do all - these must be the marks of our waiting as of theirs.  As gloriously as God proved Himself to them the faithful and wonder working God, He will to us also."

It seems most likely, no, imperative, that if we truly desire all that God promises for us, this side of His second coming, then we must pass through this understanding. 

Our natures recoil at such talk.  Feebleness?  Dependence?  Utter and absolute helplessness?

We are babes.  We travel through life thinking we are wise, yet, in the eyes of our infinitely wise Creator, we are foolish ones.  We easily forget that He is God, we are merely clay.  Even that statement recoils a great many.

But here's the simple truth:  Do you believe in God?  Do you believe that you were created by God?  Do  you believe that God is all-powerful, all-knowing, all-good, all-loving, everywhere present?  Yes?  Then who are we to presume anything on God.  Who are we but dust? 

We must come to grips with this, or reject it at our possible peril.  It is impossible to read the whole of the Bible and not see this constantly present.  We get ourselves in trouble when we make of ourselves gods.

I do not know how to decipher the true child of God.  Only God knows that.  I do read that, in the final day, a great many people will find themselves locked out.  " Go away, I never knew you".  These words should strike fear in us all.

So...boy...there is much to consider here.  I am through this door of understanding.  I understand, and accept this teaching.  But, it would seem, I have been knocked on my keister with this truth, and haven't stood up, and moved forward.

Ok.  Onward, and upward. 

My soul, wait only upon God!

Does Expectation come after Hope in God? - Comments please!

Andrew Murray's "Waiting on God" (Day #26) - In Holy Expectation.

Micah 7:7 - But as for me, I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.

Andrew Murray:

"When we have special petitions, in connection with which we are waiting on God, our waiting must be very definitely in the confident assurance:  "My God will hear me."  A holy, joyful expectancy is of the very essence of true waiting."

I must confess, I have little of this expectation, this joyful hope.  I fully believe in my Sovereign God.  I can wrap my mind around hope, but expectation seems to allude me.

As I contemplate this shortfall, I wonder if perhaps I project my natural father presumptions upon God?  I wonder if the melancholy that accompanies my great challenges, and subsequent prayers, are the by-product of my lack of joy-filled expectancy?

I wonder, how does one go from hope to joy-filled expectancy?  Wouldn't it be wonderful to face every adversity with the glee of a child going to Disneyland?  Is that a ridiculous thought?

Yet, if we truly understood, and believed God is who he says he is, wouldn't we possess this kind of faith?

So how do we possess this holy expectation? 

I have struggled in these past 25 days as I learn to wait.  I have grown, I really have, but expectation has stopped me dead in my tracks.

Andrew Murray:

"God himself must work it.  And for this end, our working must cease.  We must see how entirely it is to be the faith of the operation of God who raised Jesus from the dead - just as much as the resurrection, the perfection of God's life in our souls is to be directly His work."

Once again, I learn that my ever exhausting, self work is useless.  This constant "go-getter" attitude is a blessing, and a curse.  I have greatly learned that hard work, integrity, and persistence will take me far, but some things are completely out of my power.  I can try, and try, and try to no avail.

Once again, it is clear that I need more heart surgery, from the Great Heart Surgeon.  That, I can wrap my mind around.  That I can hope for.  "The expectation Father?...I need you for that.  I don't possess the ability to get there."

Oh my soul, yearn to God alone for holy expectation!

I would love to hear, and actually could use your input, and/or experience with this one.  Thoughts and comments please!

Jeremiah Burroughs - The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment (#1)

I have started reading Jeremiah Burroughs' "The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment", with Tim Challies, and a large group of others from around the world.

I have never been fond of the word contentment. 

Somewhere, in my worldview, I equated contentment with settling for less.  If you were content, then you were the type of person who didn't dream big, and chase after those dreams.  You were simply content where you are.  You gave up the chase.

Paul, in Philippians 4:11 said, "for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content."  In fact, here are a string of New Testament verses holding forth great gain in contentment.

Burroughs:  "Contentment is to be learned as a great mystery, and those who are thoroughly trained in this art, which is like Samson's riddle to a natural man, have learned a deep mystery."

OK.  I am up for learning a great mystery from God.  But I do have to admit, I am just on the tail-end of learning to "wait on God", and now I need to learn to be content?  

Burroughs answer:  "That to be well skilled in the mystery of Christian contentment is the duty, glory and excellence of a Christian."

"But I don't want to give up on my dreams", to which Burroughs replies, "David, you got it wrong.  Christian contentment is that sweet, inward, quiet, gracious frame of spirit, which freely submits to and delights in God's wise and fatherly disposal in every condition."

Ah, so I don't give up on my dreams, I am to freely submit to God's wise, and fatherly will.  That I can do, as he knows my dreams, and actually, he put them there in the first place.

Sign me up!

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