Today's text from the ESV Study Bible: Exodus 30-32.
As I continue reading of God's design for the tabernacle, it unsettles me to consider my lackadaisical attitude towards God's holiness.
Even as I read these passages, I can feel the struggle in my soul for self-worth as my fallen substitute for God's worth.
Then, to top off my sorrow, I find myself holding these Israelites in contempt for their sinful dancing before the golden calf, when it crosses my mind that I have done this dance many times in my life. In fact, this dance is a constant struggle in my life.
My golden calf might more resemble security in wealth, pride in my own ability, my family, my possessions, my mind, my Boomer in the Pew blog. Heck, as John Calvin so correctly nailed it, we are all idol making factories, and I am certainly no less blameworthy.
Now, to be clear, I am not suggesting that I dance before these things as Israel blatantly did, but as I search my heart, and force myself to honestly answer where I have completely place my faith, I am dejected to admit that a portion of my faith is indeed placed in these golden calf-like things.
Then, as I gaze upon this painting, I am mortified to consider that I too have participated in this dance.
Abba, thank you for your long-suffering, merciful patience for one such as me. Thank you that you desire to teach me as a son, rather than snuff me out as the adversary I sometimes resemble.
Oh my soul...deeply understand these things!
