This post is part of my 31 day journey through Andrew Murray's devotional treatise, "Waiting on God". You can find my reasons for this journey at this link.
Psalm 25:4-5 - Make me to know your ways, O Lord;
teach me your paths. 5 Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long.
Andrew Murray likens waiting on God, to the army about to go into battle.
Imagine being on the battle field. There is your enemy. Large, fierce, strong, and perhaps even overwhelming.
The two forces are standing face to face. There is fear, deep fear. Nothing is happening, simply standing there, potentially starring at death.
"What are we waiting for, let get this over with!", your buddy exclaims.
"We don't do anything, until we get our orders, on the radio, from command", you assure back to him.
There it is again! Waiting. I hate waiting, remember?
The silly part of this whole lesson, for me, is that many times, not only am I impatient, but I don't even have the walkie-talkie in my hand?
I'll figure this out myself. I will be the infantryman who goes down into infamy for taking charge, and leading our company to victory. I can do it, let's not wait to see what the general has to say.
Besides, who is he anyway?
Here you have a picture of my battle:
- I have not completely placed my faith in God. Otherwise, I would possess a confidence in battle. My Father is God, what have I to fear? I still operate as though my relationship with God is a democracy, not a sovereignty.
- When I call out to God, in my walkie-talkie, I get frustrated with His seemingly lack of response. "God, I'm under fire here, do you hear me?"
- Sometimes, I throw the walkie-talkie on the ground, and attempt to do things my way. I take upon myself, burdens that God desires to hold.
Oh my soul, will you ever learn to wait upon God?
So David Porter, intellectual assent in one thing, stepping out and daily leaving your cares, in your Creators hands, is something entirely different.
Oh my soul, do you trust him? Then leave your cares with him.
Oh my soul, do you really trust him? Then leave your cares with him.
Oh my soul, are you tired of carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders? Then leave your cares with him.
Am I the only goofball, on the planet, who struggles with this?